Mt optimism for this year has been tempered with reality, but still I am choosing to celebrate today. Our trip up to Oakland for clinic went well. I didn't get any really bad news that day, so it was an improvement over last year. Already there have been many hard days. As Claire grows and continues to amaze me the torment of the reality seems so much more. The brighter the day, the harsher the reality but I have to just keep praying and keep putting one foot in front of the other. I did get half the Christmas cards out and today I am mailing the rest. I used cards with a tree since we never put one up. It is so great to sit and reflect on the miracle of the birth of Christ away from the holiday busyness. Truly, it is today, every day that the birth of Christ becomes something amazing and worth celebrating. Without the hope that the birth brings, I can not imagine how I would get through today. So far I am aware of 6 girls with Rett Syndrome passing this year, two of them yesterday. I struggle every day that I want her to be free yet I am so blessed by her presence, I do not want her to leave yet. So we continue on with the constant emotional roller coaster between joy and grief, and with that I will just try to celebrate today.